kiya...---....

I'm back..
after so long..
I'm visiting my blogger again...
last night was our acquaintance party
at the Cebu Grand Convention Center...
I know I look good last night
and all I ever wanted was
for people to see me
and appreciate me
from head to toe..
But I don't know
if I had achieve any of that..
But HE...
A freshman in our course..
changed the way
I feel last night..
not just because he is my crush
but because he resembles
my Ex so much
that I feel like crying
the very time
I touched his shoulder
when we asked him
to have a picture with us...
A sense of nostalgia came
rushing back to me
as if the person
standing right next to me
was the same person who had
my heart broken
almost 4 years ago...
and it made me shiver...
And he had me realize
that the feeling was
never gone...
As the night came to its finale,,
as he went out of the hall
and as I looked at the door
where he took his exit,
suddenly, out of my expectation,
he was standing there
and as I looked at him
I looked at his eyes
and for a moment until now
it made me feel that
he was looking right through
me too.
It made me turn around instantly...
God...the pain would be unbearable..
and I can't endure it..
I can't go on like this..
He's just a kid..
and there's just no way
I'm gonna let myself
fall for someone in resemblance
with my Ex...
Hope this will
be over soon..
hope it'll
pass me by soon...
just like any other
pages of my life
way way back...