I hate to go....

I hate to go..
for it will break my heart in two....
it"ll make me cry...
because I know
when I'll be back
I'll no longer see him...
I'm not gonna see him
forever,,,,...
and
that's just so painful for me...
I could not take it....
I could not bare the pain
that it"ll cause me...

He is just so
so
so
irresistible....
I don't know why..
but I don't wanna feel
the same way I feel
towards his cousin...
I should not cry...
not again..
for someone
who is not mine...
it's so pathetic of me...
but the heaviness I feel now
is true,,..
I wanna cry
no matter how pathetic I look....
The day I'll leave
this place
will also be a shattered day...
I may cry..
I may become numb...
I may never be happy
for the rest of the semester break......

I wish
I didn't have to think about it...
I wish
it didn't have to happen.....
I wish
I didn't hope that much....

I shouldn't be miserable today....

I know this will just pass..
I hope this feelin'
will go away sooner....
I don't want to bare the
pain for too long
for it will
slowly wrench my heart.....

Lemuel...
just go away..
I know you'll just be
a part of my life today....
and tomorrow...
and the next day...
you'll be gone....
FOREVER.....
just like everybody else.....

..they just come and go...
..leavin' me again
in my own solitude........


I know,
that someday
you'll be just a fragment,
a piece,
of this so worn out memory...

You'll belong
in my past..
you'll be my yesterday..
a part of my teenage history....

But amidst all
the longing that I've been
through that didn't come true...
I still wanna thank you
for that a simple glance of you
doesn't fail to
give color to all the gloomy days
this semester.....

seeing you
brought shivers to my spine...
butterflies flutter
in my stomach....
and it made wonders
within me...
I'll surely miss the
sight of you.....

Your smile
would forever stay,
nailed,
in my mind....
for it can melt my heart....

I will never forget that night...
when fate decided
to bring us together...
..in the right place
but at the wrong time....

i know you were drunk then..
and I'm not that drunk...
I love the feeling..
the feel of your hands
against my bare skin....
the cold ballpoint of the
pen you're using
when writing down your
number brought
different wondrous sensation
in the dept of my soul
that
I can never describe....

The attention
you were giving me that night
is irreplaceable....
It made me wish now
that that night would never have to end..
that it would continue forever..
so I will never have to suffer
from it now....

that night..
what ever happen that night...
I will always ask God
to play it again and again
in my own memory...

I will never have enough of it...
I wont get enough of it...

I know Lemuel...

"that what happens
here in Cebu, will stay
in Cebu.."

"You will forget Me...
and I will forget You.."


GB